Searching for Self & Beauty

You still believe that your pockets are an adequate substitute for a purse, but you are becoming less the girl that did her best to kiss her elbow so that she could become a boy and fast beoming more woman. Makeup hides well the scar beneath your right eye and the one on your right cheek, but even when you aren't turned to your good side, you are lovely. You've searched your soul many times for strength to soldier on and courage to walk through walls of fear and self doubt and you've dried your tears for him with the fingers that end in bitten and unladylike nails, now sit and shed a few for yourself. There's time enough for you, and no need to spread yourself out so thin amongst dishes, strewn toys, children, demanding maternal figures, and the inconsiderate soon-to-be ex-husband. You've found your hope in God, and strength and courage in yourself now search for beauty the kind only found in inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. You've trained as men do and made changes in yourself to change the world around you now enjoy being a woman and nurture and be nurtured, give love and accept love, dance, sing, cry while knowing that true strength appears when you think yourself weak, and know that the changes you have made and continue to make already have changed and will continue to change the world, appreciate your own evolution with as great a passion as you have appreciated revolution. Search for your beauty and remember that it is of great worth in God's sight.